We are now inside 2 weeks, and I'm feeling extremely anxious.

I don't know how to do this in reverse.

11 months ago, when I decided to leave behind everyone I love and everything I know and move to a foreign country to take a job in a field in which I am neither trained nor experienced, the 2 weeks prior to departure were insane. At least then, I knew what to do. I had a checklist, a plan. I knew what to take, what to prepare for.

I just don't know how to undo it all.

I mean, who's going to sit by me while I pack and ask the tough questions ("Will you really need this?" "Can you live without this?" and my personal favorite: "It's a teacher's bag. You're going to be a teacher. You need this.")? Who's going to help me weigh my bags and remind me how to do simple math?

And the deeper questions: Will these goodbyes be harder, knowing it could be (and in some cases, will be) forever? What sense of loss will accompany this leaving? How will this grief manifest? Will culture shock actually happen to me? Am I going to become a strange maladjusted ex-expatriate, incapable of balancing the two cultures I have come to love?

And, most nagging of all, what if I fall right back into my pre-Nigeria life and habits?

Now accepting advice...